[Noticing his pause] Oh, everyone says Agatsuma-san had special training. [If I'm not a fighter, I probably can't even get into Goura, right?] I'm just what I look like; I'm a foreign student learning Japanese. ["Foreign", literally "outside-person", has a special emphasis, since I'm also outside the fighter system. But it also carries extra irony given that I'm from further away than he might guess, from another world.]
[Nagisa is an idiot; incompetence is unattractive in my opinion and almost certainly to Soubi as well; but his believing it would have been strategic and was worth a try. Anyway, re-evaluating him just reminds me that I have slow reflexes, no magic and probably not the slightest chance of harming him physically, unless I can pull a psychological shock that he'd probably be prepared for if he had any reason to attack me anyway. I also realise I'm a tiny palette-reversed match with his outfit, with lavender corduroys and a purple lace scarf peeking out under my long dark grey wool coat.]
[Of course it's a neutral statement to me, as well. I'm too literal in my interpretation of conversation to be reading hidden, backhanded messages into things that have no reason to contain them. A person who says something like that would have no trouble insulting me straight out if that's what he meant to do. I hear it as "I'm not sure yet whether you're worth my time," which is not an insult; it's a fact that does not surprise me, given that he's known me for approximately two minutes.]
And sure, I'll come with you. [Brightly. There's no such thing as a "right degree" of polite for me, no default nuanced expectation that doesn't hinge on the expectations of whoever I'm with. It sounded polite to me on account of not being an insult or aggression.]
But yeah, I play video games a lot... [Assuming he'll connect this with how I might have heard about the fighter system.] You know what my childhood dream was? When I was Ritsuka's age. I used to have this recurring fantasy that was always in my mind. I half believed it would happen to me, despite the fact that I knew, or thought I knew, that it was impossible. I thought... I thought I might wander into a place from the games I loved. Or that someone from the games would come to me, maybe talk to me and ask me to come with them, maybe just kidnap me... And they'd take me away somewhere secret and teach me that I had magical powers. [Shakes head sadly] I'm not even kidding, I thought every day that it would-- [Grabs Soubi's sleeve and shakes his arm by it, desperately.] It was real, wasn't it? Why not me? When I thought it would happen even when I didn't know it was real... [I know he doesn't know the answer. But I can't help wanting to plead with someone. As if he represented something.]
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Date: 2012-03-01 06:46 am (UTC)[Nagisa is an idiot; incompetence is unattractive in my opinion and almost certainly to Soubi as well; but his believing it would have been strategic and was worth a try. Anyway, re-evaluating him just reminds me that I have slow reflexes, no magic and probably not the slightest chance of harming him physically, unless I can pull a psychological shock that he'd probably be prepared for if he had any reason to attack me anyway. I also realise I'm a tiny palette-reversed match with his outfit, with lavender corduroys and a purple lace scarf peeking out under my long dark grey wool coat.]
[Of course it's a neutral statement to me, as well. I'm too literal in my interpretation of conversation to be reading hidden, backhanded messages into things that have no reason to contain them. A person who says something like that would have no trouble insulting me straight out if that's what he meant to do. I hear it as "I'm not sure yet whether you're worth my time," which is not an insult; it's a fact that does not surprise me, given that he's known me for approximately two minutes.]
And sure, I'll come with you. [Brightly. There's no such thing as a "right degree" of polite for me, no default nuanced expectation that doesn't hinge on the expectations of whoever I'm with. It sounded polite to me on account of not being an insult or aggression.]
But yeah, I play video games a lot... [Assuming he'll connect this with how I might have heard about the fighter system.] You know what my childhood dream was? When I was Ritsuka's age. I used to have this recurring fantasy that was always in my mind. I half believed it would happen to me, despite the fact that I knew, or thought I knew, that it was impossible. I thought... I thought I might wander into a place from the games I loved. Or that someone from the games would come to me, maybe talk to me and ask me to come with them, maybe just kidnap me... And they'd take me away somewhere secret and teach me that I had magical powers. [Shakes head sadly] I'm not even kidding, I thought every day that it would-- [Grabs Soubi's sleeve and shakes his arm by it, desperately.] It was real, wasn't it? Why not me? When I thought it would happen even when I didn't know it was real... [I know he doesn't know the answer. But I can't help wanting to plead with someone. As if he represented something.]